Nov 2021

Last times

I don't know,

how many times,

have I said,

this is the last,

the last time I think,

the last time I,

force myself to breathe,

the last time,

I use the word,

love, hope, trust, and will,

the last time ,

I say this is the last time,

the last time,

I close a chapter,

but each time,

every word takes new meaning,

a new mental shape,

and oh how damned I am,

to constantly reconstruct,

my own sense of what,

I call something,

to be a last time,

because regardless,

of how much my mind asks for

a last time,

the heart says, once more,

for the better or worse.